Who is that monster that emerges out of the blue? Is that me? How can I be so awful? How can I mutter under my breath, “You bas---d” to the person I’m supposed to love most? Are there two people in here, one nice and the other horrible?
Haven’t we all felt like a monster at times? Haven’t we all wondered if people knew what we really thought and felt and how we act in private that they wouldn’t like us?
Well, the good news is that that isn’t who we really are. A Course in Miracles tells us we have a case of mistaken identity. It says we’re the innocent children of God who have never done anything wrong. But how can that be possible when we are nice one minute and vicious the next?
We mistakenly identify ourselves with our ego personalities rather than the Divine Loving Presence within us. We really think we are this person who works at the bank, has three kids, likes hockey, is friendly but has a bad temper, etc.
What would happen if we truly believed we were the holy Son of God (W-p.I.191.h), that we were loved without conditions? If we truly believed we were innocent and therefore deserving of all good things? How many times have we heard “God loves us just as we are,” and our response is “Yeah, yeah, yeah.” We hear these words and for most of us they are just that—words. It’s an intellectual concept for most of us; we don’t really feel it deep down.
The workbook lessons of A Course in Miracles train our minds to change our identity. As long as we think we are bodies with individual personalities, separate from each other, we will always return to guilt and misery. It is only by claiming our Christ Self, our Divine Self, that we will find true happiness. Trying to improve our lives and find things that bring us pleasure only work temporarily.
Here’s to relaxing into the truth of our Being and knowing, as A Course in Miracles tells us, I need do nothing.” (T-18.VII.h)
Blessings, Lorri Coburn